Reality Check
For the past 3 months I have been so excited and couldn’t wait for this week. Vacation Bible School. I have wanted to work the last 7 summers we have been at Immanual Baptist Church but never could really afford to take off work a week to participate. I have planned, prayed, worked, and organized a lot of hours to get ready. I just knew it was going to be wonderful. Well, it wasn’t. In fact, yesterday I told Andi I never wanted to do it again. This week I have had the stomach virus, Lauren has her 3rd double ear infection, Russ is out of town, and I have had around 25 screaming 4 year old at VBS. Attitude check??? One needed right here!
I sat down last night to talk to God and I was really going to give it to Him. I mean come on….give me a break! These last few weeks have been a little rough if we are keeping score God. Car, house flooding, etc….In His still small voice He said, “It is not about You.” Of course, I was telling Him, “I know, I figured that out awhile back ….now back to what I am telling you….” Then He said again….”It’s not about you.” Wham!
I am voicing my complaints over and over to anyone who would listen. VBS is not about me…my enjoyment, my fulfillment, my entertainment. It is about the 25 screaming children who may never hear about Jesus except through this week. It is about me showing them who He is. At that realization, my heart, my head, my attitude changed. I cried. I said I was sorry and you know what???? I had the absolute most fabulous day. I’m not kidding either. I went in this morning saying okay God…I don’t have to enjoy this, really. You don’t have to make me happy and things go smoothly. The kids don’t have to get along. I choose to make this about You and I choose to make the best of it. How can I serve You today God.
The kids got along. Things ran smoothly. I was in amazement. I actually had a lot of fun. You know what the best part is. He didn’t have to do that. I was not expecting that. How good is the God I serve? I just love Him more everyday. Jesus did not pick and choose His serving. He served as the lowest of all. Anything I do is the dirt on the bottom of His shoes. How dare I complain?
Mark 10:43-45
43"But it is not this way among you, (AN) but whoever wishes to become great among you shall be your servant; 44and whoever wishes to be first among you shall be slave of all. 45"For even the Son of Man (AO) did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many."
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Re: Reality Check
This is so true. It is amazing how God blesses us when we surrendor unto Him. I love you.
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Oh my! You have no idea how much I needed that. I teach childrens church at our church and I have been compaining and complaining for weeks/months to Josh about it. I even said "I don't know why I even get dressed and go to church sometimes! All I do is childrens church and then stay in the nursery with Jed on Sun nights!!!" Thank you so very much from the bottom of my heart for reminding me that it is NOT about ME...it is about HIM!!!
Love your blog so much! What a ministry it is becoming!
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